I create not for the fame, or the money but for the love of it.
Some of you may not know that I’m a master of procrastination, I’m stubborn, lazy and also stubborn (had to count that twice because you don’t know how stubborn I am). But I do what I do, and there’s quite a lot of them.
But I think the good thing is that I am the kind of person who will do ANYTHING for things I am passionate for. Even if that means no sleep, because I know that I’m doing it for a reason, and the reason I’m doing it for means a lot to me.
Dancing hurts—physically, even mentally and emotionally. Physical pain in dancing is inevitable. I have literally gone thru pain, sweat, blood and tears. I have been injured a couple of times and still living with some of these injuries.
Through the years of dancing, I have dislocated my left knee, suffered and still am suffering from a metatarsal injury, a mild tear in my hip, an Achilles and shoulder tendinitis. But I’m still dancing at least every now and then.
Emotional pain? That’s when you get yelled at by your director(s) and embarrassing you in front of other people, calling you names, pushing you so hard to your fullest that it’s just too exhausting and sometimes depressing. That hurt, but it was worth it (if that even sounds right?)
Despite all of those painful experiences, I always think that the outcome is always rewarding—even more rewarding when you’ve been through so much.
In college, I went to Journalism school and at that time I have wanted so much to write for one of the Philippines’ leading newspapers called the Philippine Daily Inquirer. But I was told by one of my professors that my writing will never make it there, because I write too casually (which is true) and that I should rather just dance because according to him, that’s all I know. But now, I may not have written or worked for one of the dream companies I’ve had back then, but I do write for something I am passionate for and at the same time not only write, but run a publication of my own with my brother.
Obviously, it wasn’t for me but I have found something better--way better. And everyday, every night I work hard for it. Sleepless nights of emailing, meetings here and there, and all the hustle needed to keep up with our publication, my writing and not to mention my full time job—it’s exhausting, but those are the things I love to do.
Sometimes I don’t know why I do it, but what I know is that I won’t do it and won’t continue to do it, if I don’t love it.
Knowing the “why” in things we do, doesn’t only get things done but also motivates us to do what we do. It may be an everyday struggle, but in the future a triumph. Regardless of all the hard work, don’t forget loved ones, and don’t forget to live.
So, why do you what you do?