I don't know what you're thinking, but you'd probably get the stereotype artist who smokes weed, gets drunk AF, an emotional wreck, or however you may have seen it on TV. Well, partly true BUT that depends on the artist. I'm pretty much that, except for the weed part.
Years ago, a high school friend of mine found out that I was also a painter, and doing all these exhibitions with my painting, and he thought it was pretty cool. He then asked me if I ever paint sober. I did. Still (kinda) do. But most of my works at that time were out of pain, angst, and melancholy, so the emotions were crazy and the emotions alone were high AF. At that time, I felt like I could create more when I was emotionally hurt.
So there was one time I had to finish eight canvases and were all 5x4 feet (240 inches) in only two weeks because I had to fly to Hong Kong and start living a new life at that time. I had to work at the studio of the gallery which was located in the basement of the building (it was creepy btw). I'd stay up late until 12 am or until I felt dead tired that I had to go home and my ex-boyfriend would have to pick me up and drive me back home. That time, I was sharing the studio with some other artists and they would normally ask me if I wanted to smoke weed with them after a long day of burning our brains out creating and inhaling paint and varnish fumes. And all those times they'd asked me, I've always said no (but I should've though, lol jk).
As an artist, I do drink. A lot. I don't know if that's me being my father's daughter (lol he isn't an alcoholic but he did drink a lot) or alcohol just does it's magic how it stimulates creativity.
I've been doing so much writing lately---running after deadlines for articles, running my own publication with my brother. It's crazy. If you're asking how I do it..trust me, it's the same thing I ask myself ALL. THE. TIME.
Anyway, if you've been following me on social media, this pretty much explains all the drinking for the past few weeks on my stories (because yes, having my shit all over the place is exposed to everybody on the internet and like Dua Lipa said, IDGAF because that's life--real life). Also, because I realised I needed a social life, and it seems to be going pretty well...right?
Artists are very expressive people. We like to express ourselves in different (weird) ways--in the way we dress, makeup, dyeing our hair, body piercing, tattoo, cigarettes, alcohol and all different ways, the norm would think is totally strange and will never understand.
There are times that I get a maximum of three hours of sleep, because the moment I try to go to sleep, my brain won't shut up and after another day of living I get all these inspiration to either write, paint, move my body in awkward ways (I mean dancing :p ) and I just HAVE to, because I know if I don't it, I won't be able to do it the way I feel at that very moment and the feeling won't be the same as I create it (which also people don't really get too).
Sleeping has always been my favourite "activity". But it has also been one of the hardest things to do. Like now, writing this, and it's nearly 3 am and I have a call time of 9 am in a few hours, so... *shrugs*
"Collecting memories, and keeping it safely
Gather them where no one else could find.
Store it safely, store it well
For you alone, know the way in.
From every step of success,
To every mistake made regret.
But what good are those memories?
When memories are to be lost in time."
(more on poetry, here.)
I like watching people.
Okay, maybe that sounds creepy. Let me rephrase...I'm observant. Artists like to think about the world, observe, and ponder about the people and things around them. So maybe the next time you catch me staring blankly into space or looking like I've gone somewhere in my head, that's just me "pondering" about life....or maybe you're just really boring to talk to. HAHA!
And yes, we listen to all sorts of things because inspiration is EVERYWHERE. Listening to music, for myself, for example, is essential. I need music in my life, music is everything to me. When I'm creating something--may it be in writing or painting, editing photos, I need to listen to something. That's probably why my music taste is all over the place. One minute I'm listening to The Ronettes, next thing you know I'm jamming like a gangstah to Macklemore's Thrift Shop. *sings* "I'm gonna pop some tags, only got twenty dollars in mah pocket"
Being an artist, I feel like we are the most misunderstood people in the world but then people think we're the coolest, toughest because we give this image of "we don't give a rat's ass about nothing". We look like we don't care about how we dress, how we look, and what we think because that's a way of us expressing ourselves. But shouldn't that really be how it is? If you keep thinking of what other people think, then you're not being yourself anymore. Why let people want you if you always have to please them...then that just means that they don't really like you--or MOST importantly, the real you.